omg. i'm leaving tmr. haiz. am having mixed emotions. excitement @ finally having the chance to explore the great unknown by myself (you go girl!!), nostalgia (i wun say it's really sadness, juz a tugging feeling in my heart) @ having to leave my family, frens n the mundane (i AM a boring person @ heart... ahaha...) but peaceful life in s'pore, resignation @ having to commence yet another battle wif assignments n exams, anxiety @ flunking these assignments n exams (n thus sabo my sureties into coughing out monetary compensation for breaking my bond...XP), joyful hope tt i'll find cute guys there so i can grow fat on eye candy (yum!!) n maybe dismiss the "look but don't touch" rule set by my grandma (ahaha...), insecurity @ having to do (i juz burned this pot of porridge i was cooking... omg. i hope i dun burn my apartment down in melbourne. never underestimate jojo's powers of destruction.) n think abt everything (e.g. wat groceries n daily necessities to buy) myself, but heng got my lovely frens wif me to both share n minimise this insecurity, the exhilirating rush @ finally realizing tt i'm about to embark on a new chapter of my life as an independent entity n will have the freedom to do whatever i want!! woohoo!! (eh, no la, i'm a guai1 person, not a party girl... *wink* heh. heh. heh.), and finally, the old paranoia tt i may get into accidents, get sick or DIE in a foreign country (sob!!)... oh well, i'm morbid n paranoid by nature... ahaha...
oh my. what a mixture of feelings. but the most important thing in my brain now is: HOW TO PACK MY LUGGAGE SO THAT IT'S NOT TT OVERWEIGHT!!! (this brings me to ANOTHER emotion: frustration)GOD knows how much overweight my luggage is lor. actually i also know la. but am trying to practice denial n avoidance. hee. dun understand y it's so damn heavy la. shoot. will hafta repack again n pack stuff OUT instead of IN.
I'M GONNA MISS YOU GUYS!!!
I'm leaving my peaceful and stable existence here
For a stint in the abyss of the great unknown
What will I find there?
I'm leaving my house with it's creature comforts
For a long stay in places that I cannot call my own
Where will I settle there?
I'm leaving my country, my family and friends
For a foreign land devoid of these persons
Who will I meet there?
I'm leaving everything that is familiar to me
For something that is strange and new
How will I react there?
I'm leaving for a total of five hundred and forty days
For the pursuit of three academic semesters
When will I return from there?
I'm leaving all who took care of ME all my life
For the promise to take care of THEM for the rest of their lives
That is Why I'm going there.
~jojo~
P.S. i think i shld try being a poet or writer... ahaha... i suspect that i do have a great store of literary talent just waiting to be tapped... lalala...
{♥} audrey
{♥} huixin
{♥} jiahui
{♥} kay sing
{♥} liting
{♥} regina
{♥} gerald t
{♥} angelineee
{♥} germaine
{♥} friend
{♥} you khai
{♥} dor
{♥} athena
{♥} nikki
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polaris said at 12:10 AM
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Post a Commenttake care girl.. so sorry i can't send you off tmr! >.< *hugz*
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