well... here i am starting clinical attachments once again... horror of horrors!!! despite my predictions of hands or mental health, got posted 2 community physical dysfunction instead... rmr those of ya whom i said i tink i'm more suited 2 physical dysfunction than mental health n paeds?? well! i juz discovered another component 2 my overall well being in clinicals besides being in de field tt i enjoy: TYPE OF SETTING. am extremely hospital-sick rite now... tt's rite! u heard me! dis placement has further confirmed de fact tt i'm indeed NOT at all suited 4 community placement... not only do i find community placements slack (which is a joy to my 2 classmates @ de same placement), i also find it quite boring n unstimulating... sigh! n i wonder y tt is... how i miss de quick efficiency of hospitals n de daily turnover rate of patients!! guess i'm not a "strong practitioner-patient relationship" therapist... haha... i act like my clients 2 CHANGE frequently instead of forming long lasting relationships wif them...
is dis due 2 my innate need 2 be alone?? hmm... maybe it cums wif being an only child? i like small networks... not BIG ones... n i rather small groups of close frens than large nos. of acquaintances... somehow, i always pair acquaintances wif hypocrisy... maybe tt's y i hate networking... or izzit juz tt i have a low eq?? hmm... tink i haf no probs making frens, it's retaining de relationship tt i find tiring n arduous... haf always been a lazy person at heart, maybe tt's y i dun like putting too much energy into relationship maintenance... i rather keep de energy 2 my own reflections n feelings... hmm... guess tt makes me someone whose world revolves ard myself?? indeed, many a time i've fu1 yan3 pple when i really din feel like toking... surprise! i DO act feel like NOT toking... contrary 2 de beliefs of many frens... ahaha... dun tink any of my frens have seen me in a foul mood b4... sian n pek chek maybe, but neva angry or fuming... hmm... am i so gd at hiding my feelings? realised i've been using tiredness n sianness as an excuse wheneva i feel lousy... lousy=sad, angry, frustrated etc... is tt healthy?? u're supposed 2 vent ur feelings instead of penting them up... but i realised tt i dun really vent my feelings... de most is juz being cranky n irritable 2 my family, n i usually cum out of it in less than an hr... maybe i shld focus more on my emotional health... haven been feeling as happy as i shld recently...
juz got news tt hb's coming down next tues 2 observe us... shit. die.
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.::.dor.::. said at 9:10 PM
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Post a Commentwat i wanna say is that in a community setting perhaps u should grab this opportunity to do some deep "research" on ur patients. Go deep, not broad. U'll actually find much more interesting there to explore. =)
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