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Thursday, June 09, 2005

Hospital please... thank you very much

well... here i am starting clinical attachments once again... horror of horrors!!! despite my predictions of hands or mental health, got posted 2 community physical dysfunction instead... rmr those of ya whom i said i tink i'm more suited 2 physical dysfunction than mental health n paeds?? well! i juz discovered another component 2 my overall well being in clinicals besides being in de field tt i enjoy: TYPE OF SETTING. am extremely hospital-sick rite now... tt's rite! u heard me! dis placement has further confirmed de fact tt i'm indeed NOT at all suited 4 community placement... not only do i find community placements slack (which is a joy to my 2 classmates @ de same placement), i also find it quite boring n unstimulating... sigh! n i wonder y tt is... how i miss de quick efficiency of hospitals n de daily turnover rate of patients!! guess i'm not a "strong practitioner-patient relationship" therapist... haha... i act like my clients 2 CHANGE frequently instead of forming long lasting relationships wif them...

is dis due 2 my innate need 2 be alone?? hmm... maybe it cums wif being an only child? i like small networks... not BIG ones... n i rather small groups of close frens than large nos. of acquaintances... somehow, i always pair acquaintances wif hypocrisy... maybe tt's y i hate networking... or izzit juz tt i have a low eq?? hmm... tink i haf no probs making frens, it's retaining de relationship tt i find tiring n arduous... haf always been a lazy person at heart, maybe tt's y i dun like putting too much energy into relationship maintenance... i rather keep de energy 2 my own reflections n feelings... hmm... guess tt makes me someone whose world revolves ard myself?? indeed, many a time i've fu1 yan3 pple when i really din feel like toking... surprise! i DO act feel like NOT toking... contrary 2 de beliefs of many frens... ahaha... dun tink any of my frens have seen me in a foul mood b4... sian n pek chek maybe, but neva angry or fuming... hmm... am i so gd at hiding my feelings? realised i've been using tiredness n sianness as an excuse wheneva i feel lousy... lousy=sad, angry, frustrated etc... is tt healthy?? u're supposed 2 vent ur feelings instead of penting them up... but i realised tt i dun really vent my feelings... de most is juz being cranky n irritable 2 my family, n i usually cum out of it in less than an hr... maybe i shld focus more on my emotional health... haven been feeling as happy as i shld recently...

juz got news tt hb's coming down next tues 2 observe us... shit. die.

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**jojo is still pouting @ |11:17 PM|

1 Comments:

.::.dor.::. said at 9:10 PM: wat i wanna say is that in a community setting perhaps u should grab this opportunity to do some deep "research" on ur patients. Go deep, not broad. U'll actually find much more interesting there to explore. =)

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. the moomoo . peanut n butter~!! . food!! . kinder buenos . mysteries . laziness n procrastination . teevee . gossip . bubbles~!! . sparklers~!! . swimming . hyun bin . badminton . crapping . movies . friends . family . my hp . mp3s . $$$$$ . being lame . changing hairstyles (for betta or worse) . karaokeee . gg to exotic destinations . cooking sometimes . doing stupid things now n den . laughing @ the stupid things i do . being happy . other pple being happy . having a brain . my course of study (i luv it to a certain extent) . pple hu appreciate me . doing WATEVA i want n WHENEVER i want . korean dramas . n last but not least: ME!!! .

hates

. any creature with 6 or more legs . smoking . guys wif long hair . pple hu r not "automatic" . pple hu nag too much . spring cleaning . any other kind of cleaning . gg to the WET market . kan cheong spiders . pple hu stress me . not living up to expectations . FATS . anything tt bites, drools or vomits (incl. babies in drool/vomit situations) . not being understood . MYSELF (@ times) . crappy romance novels tt idealise couple love (i'm cynical) . being ignored . mugging for exams . anything i find disgusting . perfectionists (pple hu r obssessed wif QC) . being forced to do things .

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